I just wanted you to know…

 

September 26, 2018

“You guys always want different til you realize different isn’t better. By then it’s too late.”

 

That was my response the last time I got a “I just want you to know…”

 

And I didn’t read the rest of what he wrote because I didn’t care lol. I just said “wow that’s solid advice I just gave I’m gonna write about it.”

 

So here I am:

Hey hey boomerang gang how you feelin today?

 

I suppose it’s partially my fault. For all the times I said I would always love you. I’d love you til the day I died. If I died now, my love would still haunt you. ($hout to ma$e). I want you to know I really wasn’t lying. I genuinely meant it. And I would have too, if you’d let me.

 

I underestimated myself. I didn’t know i deserved better. Shit, I didn’t know I could love someone else MORE. Life comes at you fast.

 

And I know you’re confused as to how you came back all those times and I laughed you off (that was me being polite) or said no thank you (more polite) or didn’t answer (the most polite). Especially when I scratched at scraps and fought for your love for so long. The thing about people like me, is that: we do ’til we don’t.

 

There’s really no rhyme reason method nor sign. I didn’t even know it was like that and it’s me I’m talking about. One day I was telling you all the reasons why you should love me and the next I wrapped up half a sandwich and went home to never think about you again.

 

Then you wanna hit me with a “I just want you to know” and to be honest I didn’t read the rest. May this be a lesson to you. Take advantage when a girl loves you enough to fight for you. That shit is fleeting. We are fickle creatures despite how we think we will never love again, we always do. More so than before even if differently.

 

Now, there’s a very important difference between men and women and maybe I’ll blog about that later. Women get hit on and roll their eyes so far back into their head that those pretty little eyes get lodged in our frontal lobes. Men get hit on and think they can get different. Better.

 

You guys always want different til you realize different isn’t better. By then it’s too late.